I have no motivation to do anything, anymore. I feel like I need to change things, but that I can’t, so I dont even bother. I feel isolated, alone, and ignored by everyone and everything around me. I cant even see the point anymore.
Why do I even bother trying to catch up with someone if I’m the only one trying? I guess they don’t care or don’t like me or something. I guess me caring for them doesn’t work the other way around. I think I need to stop caring so much. *sigh*
This was too good!
Isn’t this kinda racist?
I’m tired of trying, sick of crying, I know I’ve been smiling, but inside I’m dying.
You were my so-called “daughter” and now you don’t even talk to me. How things change. I don’t even know why, for sure, you don’t talk to me. I take stuff like that too personally, I guess. Time to start not giving a care…
They say you should remember the good times and focus of them. I’m trying to do that right now, but it’s hard to not be disappointed when it comes to your birthday. It started off really sad, when no one came out to Mr. Ramen in Little Tokyo. I ran into someone I knew and they pretty much felt bad for me so they took me to lunch there (and later Yogurtland). Someone did come to the Tim Burton exhibit with me (1 person). Then came the dinner. I was thinking at least 12-15 people would come out. The amount of people that ate dinner with me was three (two came and stayed for a bit and didn’t eat and four others just came by and said hello). I’m just kinda sad about it all. I dont know what to think. I know stuff happens, but it’s still sad.
“Remember Steve Jobs this way, in his own words: ‘Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life.’
—Dan Gillmor, digital-media entrepreneur and author